Wednesday, October 24, 2007

LIBERAL EDUCATION


Wow. I'm really amazed at how much freedom the curriculum is offering me. So "liberal", if I may say so. I'm so much in awe at how much my sched has changed, as well. But what really strkes me most is how much sarcasm at plastic I can spew in just one paragraph.


M-TH
8:30-10:30 Calculus 1(it's pre-set. who cares? i like her)
10:30-12:00 Fil (Mambiar...hopefully, a saner teacher)
1:30-3:00 Com Systems (meh. preset. computers again?)
3:00-5:00 Computing (wiii. mugen time....)

W
whenever NSTP (hey. i'm so excited... i just can't hide it.... zzzzz)
*Hey, I'm a poet, and I didn't even know it. Oh yeah, pump eht!!

T-F
9:00-10:30 English (Yeah!! my BEst event!! Plus it's familiar territory *wink wink*)
1:30-3:00 Arnis (Grrrr.... I hate a Hobson's choice...)

or

7:30-9:00 Arnis (Coach something) (grr... no other PE to choose from)
1:30-3:00 English (Carey... I passed her once (1.5!! yeah!!) I can do it again)


What should I pick? Hmm... I need people to decide for me.

Anyways, here's to hoping for fun second sem. Fox Kiddo, Out!

^_^

Sunday, October 21, 2007

MASTER BAKER

I was baking cookies the other day. Everything was going well. The ingredients were prepared and the mood was right for confectionary treats. But something went wrong when I was mixing the batter.

It seems that the butter has expired. It was the only stick of butter I had and I didn't have the time or money to get another one. I didn't even see this coming because I've become so fond of that brand of butter. I've come to a;ways count on it.

So now my plans of enjoying a batch of cookies went crumbling down. My batter became bitter because the butter was bitter and there was no way I could see to make it better.

Doesn't it just ruffle your feathers knowing that something you had always counted on suddenly lets you down. It's like you've always expected that something to be there for you and during the time you need them, they're just not there or not what you expect them to be.

Heh.

There's a lesson somewhere there. Heh. But I can't find it. I gotta go find another stick of butter.

Pump Eht!.

Friday, October 19, 2007

RECLUSION PERPETUA

It sucks being alone, even when you know it's supposed to last for only three weeks. It sucks, too, knowing that the people you wanna be with are miles away and the only means of contact are through text and lagging Yahoo Messenger.

Yes, not seeing Milky sucks. But Milky not wanting to see me sucks even more.

I've met someone recently... and I think I've grown attached to her... and I think she might have grown attached to me as well. But, there's always a but. But she's not the same. She's not like Milky. I try to call her that but it's not the same. The harder I try to pretend or want her to be, the truth stands unscathed. She will never be Milky...

That sucks...

It sucks because I want to be with Milky, but Milky doesn't even know I like... Milky. It sucks when Milky thinks I like someone else, because that'll make Milky like me less.

Urgh... I'm sounding like gibberish again.

It sucks when I can't get my feelings out right, when people mistake it for something else. It sucks because, even through all the confusion, it makes me want Milky even more. It sucks because no matter how much I try, no matter how much Milky hates me, no matter how much Milky says so, I can't hate Milky at all....
REALLY LAME PICK-UP LINES

Somebody requested these.

1. Are you soil? Coz I dig you!
2. Are you sick? Coz you're hot!
3. Are you Jamaican? Coz Jamaican me crazy!
4. Are you a banana? COz I peel you!
Bonus: I'm a banana. Do you peel me too?
5. Are you a switch? Coz you turn me on!
6. Are you a grenade? Coz you're da BOMB!
7. Are you a Pokemon? Coz I choose you!
8. Are you SM? Coz you got it all!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

STAY, MAGIC, PLEASE

I thought it was already over between us. Over before anything had even started. But what would have been goodbye for a while was a gesture, a feeling that we did not forget, that things are just beginning.

During the past few weeks, we've been a little distant from each other, passing each other as just friends, hanging out but only saying our hi's and hello's. It was at these times that I feel like I should say something. It was like high school pre-grad all over again. Say something before that person goes or regret not saying anything forever. That sort of thing.

It was at that one time that felt like a last time that I got that feeling. I even had everything planned out. At the ferris wheel or the carousel (technically a merry-go-round because of the carts). Or maybe during the fireworks. Or maybe on the ride home. Just as long as I got to say it. Just as long as I got to say "I love you".

It's cliche, I know. I'm a sentimental fool.

It was fun. I got to spend the day having fun with... you know. Sometimes I get to enjoy the ride more because that person was there. Sometimes I even forget that I am in a ride, that everything just fades away, leaving us together in a moment of smiles and laughter.

Time just stopped when that person was with me. Each time that person went away, I found it hard to catch up with everything else.

But I didn't get to tell Milky, though. I was worried I was going to ruin what we had. I never really worked the nerve to say anything. I was just glad that we had moments to flirt, to smile, to connect and to be just there with one another.

I couldn't stop Milky from being far away from me. Same way, I couldn't force Milky to stay with me.

When you walk away
You don't hear me say
"Please... don't go"
Simple and clean as the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let you go
- Utada Hikaru, "Hikari" (Eng. Version)

I know you don't know how I feel about you, Milky. Only through these posts can I boldly say how much you mean to me. So, even though you might not hear it or see it, now... or ever. Even when you look and love someone else because I never got to tell you personally or maybe you just don't like me that way, I'll say it here anyway.


I love you...